Again, My Heart Kaput

I hope you don't mind if I told you my plan for today.
I'm going out with my boyfriend this afternoon.
How about you?

Yeah. Again, my heart kaput.
Do you guys know what is the meaning of kaput?
It means broken! Broken heart?
Yups. My heart broke once again when I received the above SMS.
Yesterday, I was so happy to receive a gift from you.
But today, my heart kaput again.
I've no idea how to handle this kind of situation.
I've tried to be strong but I think deep inside my heart, I'm very weak.
I feel like I want to run away to the sky?
But, I can't.
I feel like I want to just enter my dream with need to face this unfair world!
But, I can't.
God, help me.
God, what should I do now..?