Isabel, siri ketujuh (dan mungkin yang terakhir).

If you could operate my head and take out my brain, you should see how Isabel had become so important to me within this week.

If you could cut open my chest and take out my heart, you should see how I cry like hell inside myself with a hope that this is not the end of the story that have just started.

Really, I don't want it to end just like that.

I hope, this time, it would be a different story, but then, I think I have been cursed so that I could not have a happy love story.

Gosh. It is really sad. Deep inside my heart, I cry a lot, like hell. Literally.

I think back, again and again. Until I'm tired. I questioned myself. "Is it true that I'm a man who always miss the opportunity when it comes to a cute girl. Why I could not be there, with the girl that I like, at the right place and at the right time?"

Really, I don't want it to end just like that.

I remember, once, I told my friend. "I think, I have been cursed. All the cute girls that I knew before this surely already had boyfriend. And, even how good I treat them, they will only prefer to have me as their good friend not as their boyfriend." And I questioned my friend, "Why it must be that way? Why it could not be another way around? Am I not that good to be loved by a girl that I like?"

Gosh. It is really sad. Deep inside my heart, I cry a lot, like hell. Literally.

With Isabel, I hope it would be a different story. A story with a happy ending. I'm not sure why, but I like her very much. She has everything that I want from a girl.

But, like I told my friend: "A cute girl that I know surely already had a boyfriend. And, even how good I treat her, she will only prefer to have me as her good friend not as her boyfriend." It is the fact that I should learn to swallow, I guess.

Really, with Isabel, I hope it would be a different story. A story with a happy ending because I like her very much. She has everything that I want from a girl. Yeah, everything. No doubt.

Aku bangun pagi untuk sahur. Perkara pertama yang aku buat, capai telefon bimbit dengan harapan ada mesej daripada Isabel. Ada mesej daripada Isabel, aku buka dengan senyuman. Aku baca mesej yang diterima. "Jae, kita berbual cam biasa je, ok? Layan I cam kawan biasa. I rasa bersalah kat my boyfriend. I tak nak hilang dia. I hope you can understand and accept it." Aku balas, "Yeah, sure. Fully understood. You just think about yourself first, ok? I already get used to this kind of situation. And, it is as expected. So, sad that I couldn't have a good girl like you."

Really, with Isabel, I hope it would be a different story. A story with a happy ending.

Gosh. It is really sad. Deep inside my heart, I cry a lot, like hell. Now, it is for real!