If this is everyone New Year's resolution, I believe this world will be a better place to live...

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." -Morrie Schwartz-

Huh? It's already Monday?

"Time only seems to matter when it's running out." -Peter Strup-

Art Syndrome T-shirts @ Idify Creations

Art Syndrome t-shirts are now available @ Idify Creations, Plaza Rasta, TTDI. Hurry up, buy it while stocks last!!!

Design: XOXO
Black -10 pcs
White - 5 pcs

Address:
PR9 Plaza Rasta
Lot 3054 Sg Penchala Mel
Jalan Dato' Sulaiman
Taman Tun Dr Ismail
60000 Kuala Lumpur

Email: idifycreations@gmail.com

Contact Person:
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Nota cinta #18.

Fara Fatihah,

I'm lonely.

I'm suffocating without you around me.

Each and every seconds of my life is incomplete without you by my side.

I need you.

I want you.

I miss you.

Come back quick, I want to hug you tightly and feel warm by your love.

With love,
Ameirul Azraie

Hadiah.

My soul need to be feed, anybody, please give me this as a New Year gift.

And yeah, I'm serious, no kidding!

54100 Kuala Lumpur.

Sabtu yang baru sudah adalah Sabtu yang pertama kalinya dalam hidup di mana aku habiskan masa lebih daripada 6 jam untuk menelaah ilmu, meneroka kembali minda yang sudah penuh sarat dengan segala permasalahan hidup.

Ya, Sabtu lepas adalah kelas pertama bagi pengajian Ijazah Sarjana Kejuruteraan Mekanikal yang aku telah daftarkan diri pada hujung minggu sebelumnya.

Dalam kelas aku dapat lihat pelbagai perwatakan manusia, baik lelaki mahupun perempuan. Kesemua mereka mempunyai alasan masing-masing untuk menyambung pengajian dalam Ijazah Sarjana Kejuruteraan Mekanikal.

Kebanyakan mereka sudah berkahwin dan mempunyai anak, tidak seperti aku yang masih bujang.
Kebanyakan mereka datang daripada jauh - Johor, Negeri Sembilan, Kedah, Pahang, tidak seperti aku yang tinggal menumpang di rumah kakak yang terletak di Kota Damansara.
Kebanyakan mereka berusia 10 tahun lebih tua daripada aku dan sudah agak lama tidak menyentuh apa-apa jenis buku pelajaran, tidak seperti aku yang baru sahaja menamatkan pengajian Ijazah Sarjana Muda Mekanikal pada bulan Jun yang baru sudah.

Aku kagum. Kagum melihat kesungguhan mereka, kagum melihat kecekalan mereka, kagum melihat keazaman mereka. Sesungguhnya aku kagum dengan manusia seperti mereka. Mereka sebenarnya sudah boleh duduk santai di rumah pada hujung minggu bersama keluarga yang tersayang, tetapi mereka pilih untuk tidak melakukannya.

Kenapa?

Kerana mereka adalah sekumpulan kecil manusia yang secara sedar atau tidak telah menyahut seruan Allah yang bermaksud "Dia tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu melainkan mereka sendiri berusaha mengubahnya". Lantas, kerana inilah aku tersenyum dan hati kecilku mengucapkan tahniah kepada mereka kerana berusaha untuk masa depan mereka.

Dengan itu, aku bisik pada diri sendiri, "Kau pasti boleh lakukan apa yang mereka lakukan. Percaya pada apa yang kau lakukan dan jangan mudah berputus asa. Yakin dengan kebolehan diri kau dan pastikan 2011 nanti kau akan tamatkan pengajian dengan jayanya."

Mesin masa.

Aku renung cermin, aku lihat raut wajah yang terzahir di depan aku. Rambut panjang sehingga ke paras leher, jambang nipis yang tak pernah lekang di muka. "Same old, same old," detik aku dalam hati.

Tapi, "Wait a minute," detik aku lagi dalam hati. Aku putarkan ruang waktu kembali kepada 365 hari yang lalu.

Aku lihat aku, Ameirul Azraie yang berusia setahun lebih muda daripada aku. Aku cuba lambai kepadanya tapi tak diendahkan. "Oh, aku terlupa yang aku hanyalah ilusi maya yang tak wujud di hadapan matanya," fikir akal rasional aku.

Aku bandingkan diri aku yang sekarang dengan diri aku yang setahun lebih muda.

Aku lihat dia bersusah payah menaiki bas dan lrt untuk ke tempat kerja part-time nya. Aku lihat dia sepi kesunyian, tiada teman wanita untuk berpacaran pada hujung minggu. Aku lihat dia runsing memikirkan semester akhir pengajian ijazah sarjana muda yang bakal tiba.

Aku lihat pula diri aku yang sekarang. Aku kini memiliki kereta untuk berulang-alik ke tempat kerja. Aku kini gembira dan bahagia bersama teman wanita yang tercinta. Aku kini sudah menyambung pengajian pada peringkat ijazah sarjana.

Ya, aku dan dia dipisahkan oleh 365 hari sahaja tapi banyak perubahan yang telah berlaku. Mungkin tidak ketara bagi kau, tapi bagi aku, itu semua pencapaian, milestone dalam kehidupan Ameirul Azraie yang boleh aku banggakan.

Aku bangga. Pasti aku bangga. Memang aku bangga.

Sebab aku capainya dengan mencabar segala kelemahan yang ada pada diri sendiri. Dan aku akan pastikan yang aku akan terus mencabar diri sendiri supaya aku akan jadi seorang manusia yang lebih baik 365 hari akan datang.

Aku putarkan kembali ruang waktu kepada waktu asal, capai sebatang pen dan sehelai kertas, dan mula menulis perkara-perkara yang aku perlu cabar mulai saat ini.

Cabar.

Sebagai seorang manusia biasa, aku tahu tentang kelemahan yang ada pada diri ini.

Aku tahu aku bukan seorang anak yang datang daripada keluarga yang kaya-raya.
Aku tahu aku bukan seorang lelaki yang ada paras rupa.
Aku tahu aku juga bukan seorang pelajar yang bijak pandai.

Disebabkan aku bukan seorang anak yang datang daripada keluarga yang kaya-raya, aku cabar diri ini untuk mencari duit perbelanjaan sendiri dengan menjual t-shirts, insurans dan sebagainya supaya di masa hadapan aku akan hidup senang, kaya-raya.
Disebabkan aku bukan seorang lelaki yang ada paras rupa, aku cabar diri ini untuk mempunyai seorang teman wanita merangkap bakal isteri yang cantik, supaya anak-anak aku nanti cantik dan kacak seperti ibunya.
Disebabkan aku bukan seorang pelajar yang bijak pandai, aku cabar diri ini untuk belajar hingga ke tahap yang paling tinggi - doktor falsafah supaya satu hari nanti aku boleh berbangga dengan kejayaan akademik yang aku berjaya gapai.

Ya, aku sama seperti kau. Aku manusia, kau juga manusia. Aku banyak kekurangan, kau juga banyak kekurangan. Tapi jangan mudah tunduk pada kelemahan diri sendiri. Bangun dan berdiri dengan yakin. Atasi segala kelemahan diri dengan mencabarnya.

Cabar setiap kelemahan diri. Buat apa yang perlu - sergah, herdik, pijak, tendang segala kelemahan yang ada pada diri sendiri. Cabar dan cabar dan cabar lagi!

Lakukannya berulang-kali dan aku pasti kelemahan ini akan dapat diatasi, tapi, jika masih gagal, teruskan mencabar.

Sebagai seorang manusia biasa, aku yakin, dengan mencabar setiap kelemahan yang ada pada diri sendiri, kelemahan ini pasti akan berjaya diatasi suatu hari nanti, tidak tahu bila, tapi aku pasti saatnya akan tiba.

Cabar!

Nota cinta #17.

Fara Fatihah,

Thank you.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for not losing hope in me.
Thank you for making me realize that I have a wonderful & great girl waiting patiently in front of my eyes.
Seriously, if I can take out my heart and show it to you, you will know..
how much I appreciate you,
how much I appreciate your love,
how much I cry seeing you treat me so well.
For all those things that you have done to me,
I promise you,
with the permission of Him,
that I will take care of you
for the rest of my life.
I love you.

Ameirul Azraie.

Aku ingin menulis tapi masih tiada idea, masih tiada masa. Jadi sila klik link di bawah...

dan berfikir mengenai apa yang cuba disampaikan. Ya, klik di sini!

The wealthier a man is, the more frequently his partner has orgasms.

Can you believe it??? For further reading, please click on the following link.

About LOVE.

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.

No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.

And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE.

Which one are you? And which one do you want to be?

Small people talk about others,

Average people talk about things,

Great people talk about ideas.

Where should I begin?

I missed writing. I want to write but I'm not sure what kind of entry should I write?

There are lot of ideas in my mind but it is hard to get it translated into words.

Sigh.

I miss the old days where I can stay up late until morning, draft, write and post as many entry as I want in just one night.

I should begin, now! But where should I begin?

Peringatan kepada saya, kamu dan semua yang membaca.

"Hypocrisy of the worst kind is when one is demanding the government to use meritocracy when one oneself has been exploiting the privileges and is being heavily subsidized for in every aspect of one’s life – schooling, business, position, etc - that allows one to live a prosperous affluent life." -Anonymous-

Kata-kata semangat.

"If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page." -Mark Houlahan-

Milestone.

Today, I had a pedicure (at Bangsar Village) for the first time in my life.

My feet feels like new now.

No more ugly nails at the moment.

Say hello to metrosexual world!

Nota cinta #16.

"I am a painter,
Painting pictures all the time,
Yet when I set them near your beauty
I want to throw them all away."

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"I am a creature of God who is not perfect,
Making mistakes, the same mistakes over and over again,
If only I am a robot, a creature by human that can be programmed, I will be a perfect one,
But, truthfully, I am just ordinary Ameirul Azraie who keep on making mistakes,
Therefore, I offer you my sincere apology for my bad words and I promise to love you truthfully for the rest of my life."

Nota cinta #15.

Ameirul Azraie,

Thank you for the ross.
Thank you for bringing me to the movie.
Thank you for let me borrow your car for two days.
Thank you for loving me.
Good night.
I love you and I breathe you now.

Fara Fatihah.

Nota cinta #14.

My lovely Angel,

After all the things that had happened to me throughout the two years of journey in finding my Mrs. Finally, I believe and I really want to believe that you are my soul mate, my perfect soul mate who brings the very best out of me. It had come to a point in my life where I couldn't imagine to go through my life in the future without you. Therefore, let us pray to The One, The Almighty to make it happen, the sooner the better and I want you to know that I will be yours, and hoping that you will be mine, so that, together we will be 1Malaysia, ooops, 1 LOVE. :o)

Dialog dengan Angel.

Aku: Sayang, dengar Hot FM now! Munajat Cinta, dedicate!

Angel: Tuhan dah kirimkan dah kekasih yang baik hati. Tapi guna pos biasa, bukan pos ekspres. Tu yang sampai lambat sikit...

Kotak kaca.

Mari baca ini dan ini.

Menarik? Mahu tahu lebih lanjut? Mari tonton Al-Fatehah Memali pada hari Sabtu, 3 October, 7 p.m di The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

Ulangkaji.

Baca artikel ini; baca dan hayati.

Ambil nafas sepanjang yang mampu, renung sedalam yang boleh, dan fikir.

Put yourself in this community and just be frank with yourself, how will you judge these two characters?

Salam Eid ul-Fitr.

Ameirul Azraie dengan rasa penuh rendah diri, memohon maaf kepada semua yang mengenali diri ini. Let us all start fresh, start from the first page of a new book. Cheers!

5171.

Akhirnya, selepas 2 jam perjalanan pulang ke Jasin, kampung halaman tercinta yang telah ditinggalkan buat masa yang agak lama, aku dan adik tiba sekitar jam 12.15 pagi.

Kami disambut oleh ayah dengan senyuman gembira, disusuli oleh mama yang juga kelihatan gembira melihat kami pulang.

Di pintu masuk rumah, ayah berbual sebentar dengan aku. "How's your t-shirts business," tanya ayah dengan penuh rasa ingin tahu. "Alhamdulillah, bagus. Tadi sebelum balik, orang dah pos 15 helai," jawab aku sambil tersenyum ceria.

"It's good, right?" tanya ayah. "Yups, it's really good," aku sambut pertanyaan ayah. "Baguslah camtu. Alhamdulillah. Ayah, hari-hari doa 'Ya Allah, aku pohon kepada-Mu, dibukakan pintu rezeki untuk anak aku, semoga jualan t-shirtsnya akan bertambah laris dari masa ke semasa," kata ayah panjang lebar.

"Hehe. Thank you so much ayah," jawab aku terharu sambil hati mendoakan, "May Allah blessed you with happiness, healthiness and wealthiness till the last day of your life."

Nota cinta #13.

This is a love note that shall put you on sleep.

"Don't go anywhere without me. Let nothing happen in the sky apart from me, or on the ground, in this world or that world, without my being in its happening. Vision, see nothing I don't see. Language, say nothing. The way the night knows itself with the moon, be that with me. Be the rose nearest to the thorn that I am. I want to feel myself in you when you taste food, in the arc of your mallet when you work, when you visit friends, when you go up on the roof by yourself at night. There's nothing worse than to walk out along the street without you. I don't know where I'm going. You're the road, and the knower of roads, more than maps, more than love."

These few days have been very hectic and busy for me. I'm really sorry that you don't get the attention you always get. The project is making me crazy. But, hang in there, be patience. Just another two days and everything gonna be back to normal. I heart you, with all my heart. Sleep tight and sweet dreams my beautiful angel of love.

Kiasu lagi.

1 tin Livita Honey, 1 tin Nescafe Mocha, 1 tin Nescafe Latte, 1 buku roti Gardenia Delicia Choco Raisin diiringi lagu Deepset yang bertajuk Every instance in time is a journey of hope.

I recite a prayer "Oh Lord, I seek your help to make everything easy for me, for another two days until the final presentation is over."

3 2 1, start!

Kiasu.

Letak semua kertas rujukan dan secawan kopi di atas meja.

Esok adalah hari penentu!

Salah petunjuk.

Aku buka akaun Nuffnang, lihat keywords yang buat pengunjung datang ke blog ini.

Salah satunya tertulis "aku mahu seks lelaki".

Ouh, it's Ramadhan, no wonder.

Mengeluh.

Bila lihat duit elaun yang sedikit, mengalir seperti Niagara River dan Río Atrato River.

Mind sport, the finale.

Selesai dengan semua quiz Piping oleh William Beazley. Total marks 100%. Wuuhuu! *special thanks to Fara Fatihah, the new Piping Design Instructor*

Nota cinta #12.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful; I feel so blessed that Allah send me an angel like you. A beautiful angel with a good heart that always be by my side. I really appreciate your support and I definitely will give the same support when you need it. Thank you for tonight, for helping me with all those quizzes. I love you with all my heart, my soul & my life. Good night my dear.

Mind sport #2.

Another 7 done, 7 more to go.

Mind sport #1.

With a total number of 20.

Each of them would make up to 100%.

With her help last night I've done 6 and all are correct.

Another 14 to be done within this week.

Wuuhuu!

Syukur.

Aku: Sayang, I thank God for today. And I also thank you for bring the happiness back in my life.

Dia: Thank God for the past too. You are who you are now because you learn from the past. And thank God for the future because you are going to be successful just like your dream.

Petang di Segambut.

Dia: Hey, duk depan laptop je. Buat you punya snake-ish ni.

Aku: Nanti la jap. Bagi snake-ish tu rest on the table jap.

Suhakam vs. 1Malaysia.

Suhakam

Last year’s notice by the International Coordinating Committee of National Human Rights Institutions (ICC) to Suhakam over its failure to comply with the Paris Principles (which set international standards for independent national human rights institutions) and the threat of a possible “downgrading” in its rating bring various concerns into focus.
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If downgraded, Suhakam will, among other things, lose its right to speak at the United Nations Human Rights Council.
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Suhakam needs to be bold. Its commissioners can no longer be civil servants but must function as the voice for those whose voices cannot be heard.

vs.

1Malaysia

But the government has consistently refused to adopt the recommendations. Thus, while more abuses and violations have come to the fore through Suhakam’s reports, the authorities have not been active in solving the problems.
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Inquiries are often done selectively and there are times when Suhakam adopts a defensive role. It also behaves like a civil service and can be bureaucratic when it comes to registering complaints.”
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The commission needs to be bolder, considering how the government has chosen to ignore it from the start.
--
Most agree that the federal government’s failure to debate the commission’s annual reports in Parliament shows a lack of genuine respect for the commission.

For further reading, please click here.

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How Suhakam can be bold when they still have civil servants mentality and when 1Malaysia government choose just to ignore them?

How 1Malaysia people want to put their trust in 1Malaysia government when 1Malaysia government publicly show that they are not concern with human rights issues in this peaceful country?

Come on 1Malaysia government, let our voices be heard!

Perbualan pagi di depan mahkamah.

Aku: Sayang, kenapa guard tu tabik kat orang dalam kereta depan kita ni?

Dia: Mestilah sebab orang dalam kereta tu Hakim. Hakim is the 'big boss' here. Everybody must respect them.

Aku: Wah. Best gila jadi Hakim.

Dia: Yelah, memang best pun. If Hakim nak pergi shopping raya kat KL yang jalan tengah sesak, semua orang pun kena ke tepi bagi laluan.

Aku: Wah. Interesting la jadi Hakim.

Dia: Takpe. Tunggu I jadi Hakim, kita pun boleh pergi shopping raya dengan senang hati.

Sabtu pagi.

Bangun pagi, baca nota cinta, ucap selamat pagi kepada dunia, rasa sangat gembira. Khayal sebentar dalam dunia cinta ciptaan dewa Rumi, lihat jam sudah 8.11 pagi.

Ouh, damn. I better take my shower now.

Nota cinta, Rumi edition #1.

From the beginning of my life
I have been looking for your face
but today I have seen it.

Today I have seen
the charm, the beauty,
the unfathomable grace
of the face
that I was looking for.

Today I have found you
and those that laughed
and scorned me yesterday
are sorry that they were not looking
as I did.

I am bewildered by the magnificence
of your beauty
and wish to see you with a hundred eyes.

My heart has burned with passion
and has searched forever
for this wondrous beauty
that I now behold.

I am ashamed
to call this love human
and afraid of God
to call it divine.

Your fragrant breath
like the morning breeze
has come to the stillness of the garden
You have breathed new life into me
I have become your sunshine
and also your shadow.

My soul is screaming in ecstasy
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you

Your effulgence
has lit a fire in my heart
and you have made radiant
for me
the earth and sky.

My arrow of love
has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer.

Majlis Berbuka Puasa MCKK Class of 2003 #2.

FREE Berbuka Puasa @ Melawati

Venue: Awan’s Place, 4, Jalan M4, Taman Melawati
Date: 5 September 2009
Time: 1830-2200
Food: Fully sponsored - Nasi beriyani, ayam masak merah, dalca, acar buah, bubur kacang.

Direction:
From MRR2, take Exit 'Taman Melawati' (opposite Giant Hypermarket). Go straight pass schools, until you reach Bulatan Hillside. Just before Bulatan Hillside, there is a row of semi-D houses on your right. Awan's place is house no. 4. If terlepas, make a U turn at the Bulatan.

Agenda:
1845-1915 Arrival
1921 Berbuka puasa
1945 Maghrib berjemaah
1950 Sambung makan
2045 Isya’ and Terawih berjemaah
2200 Adjourned

Guests list:

1. Banuk
2. Shade
3. Shade (girlfriend)
4. Cibo
5. Gona
6. Mon
7. Usin
8. Che Due
9. Leman
10. Muk
11. Muk (girlfriend)
12. Haslan
13. Amir Hafiz
14. Ihsan
15. Piske
16. Budin
17. Nipi
18. Jae
19. Jae (girlfriend)
20. Salad
21. Zarep
22. Pai
23. Ijam
24. Paan
25. Ajim
26. Ajim (girlfriend)
27. Archer
28. Sudin
29. Nuar

Note:
It is very much appreciated if each of you could bring a dish to this event. E.g Roti John, Murtabak, any type of kuih-muih, where you can get from Bazaar Melawati on the way to Awan’s house.

Please wear suitable attire for prayer.

Moh le datang makan freeeeee!!!

Facebook #2.

Ameirul Azraie is ke to the ray to the zeeee!

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Ameirul Azraie likes this.

Ameirul Azraie
"This is what happen when people don't logout their Facebook account on their girlfriend's phone."

Interpretation.

Dia: Baby, dalam Off The Edge ni ada satu helai kertas, you punya drawing snake-ish tu.

Aku: Haha. It's the piping thingy yang I belajar masa training la sayang. Not snakes!

Class(ic) of 2003.

My brothers, my siblings, my family.

Together we are, for a wonderful journey in the future, cheers!

Carut.

I hate woman.

Why you need to re-arrange my stuff when I already arranged it nicely in my room?!

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

Keluhan pagi.

Belum jam 7.00 pagi, semua isi sudah dibuang.

Macam mana mahu bertahan lagi 12 jam ni..?

Facebook #1.

Zaid Ibrahim: Hi Ms. Grace. I hope you're still as energetic and fierce as always.

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Ameirul Azraie likes this.

Ameirul Azraie: Semakin energetic & fierce. Tarik rambut present boys kuat2 sikit cikgu! Hehehe.

Grace Margaret Manikkam: Boleh saya cuba dengan rambut kamu dulu...?

Lullaby for my beautiful angel.

I want you..

I wanna dream away with you tonight.
We can go anywhere you would like.
I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever.

I want you..

Lullaby for my sweet angel.

"Hush my love now don't you cry. Everything will be all right. Close your eyes and drift in dream. Rest in peaceful sleep."

Thank you.

Guys,

I'm brutally happy with the outcome of Majlis Berbuka Puasa 9903 #1 @ Homst Restaurant TTDI just now. Thanks for those who make it to the event. I really appreciate your support. Hope to get more participation on Majlis Berbuka Puasa 9903 #2. Good night & happy tagging! :)

Regards,
Ameirul Azraie

Love is in the air.

Dia: Have I ever tell you this?

Aku: What?

Dia: I love you so much.

Aku: Still?

Dia: Forever and ever. Nothing change. It grows sayang.

Being Fara, an excerpt.

"In life, you met a lot of people. You fall in love, dated someone for years and it didn't work out.
But, never give up on love. It will be there for you. It is just a matter of time for you to meet up the one, the final one."

How ironic, huh?

Read this.

Oh Lord, I ask your help to open their eyes, please Lord?

Before this, I will laugh at every jokes they made but today I cry when I read this.

What is happening to this country?

This is too much, seriously, too much to take!

For God sake, can't you for one time use your brain before do something?

Ouh, before I forgot, you better read this before you blame anybody for being racist.

Joy.

Oh God, tomorrow is Sunday. Sunday means rest day. Wuuhuu!

Majlis Berbuka Puasa MCKK Class of 2003 #1 (updated event schedule + guest list + maps).

Majlis Berbuka Puasa MCKK Class of 2003 #1 details:

Date: 31st August 2009
Day: Monday
Venue: Homst Restaurant (Chinese Muslim Cuisine),
No.48, Persiaran Zaaba, Taman Tun Dr. Ismail, 60000 KL (Please find attached Google Maps at the bottom of this entry)
Price: RM23/pax (Please deposit RM20 for reservation purpose)

Event Schedule
6.30-7.30 – Guests arrival
6.45-7.25 – ‘Bonding’ session + updates about 9903 members
7.26-8.15 – Maghrib prayer
7.26-8.30 – Berbuka
8.30 – Photography session

Menu:
1. Rice
2. Wet Butter Chicken
3. Sizzling Beef
4. Deef Fried Sotong
5. Har Lok King Prawn
6. Taufu Broccoli
7. Mushroom Soup
8. Mango Sago Lolo
9. Ice Tea 'O'
10. Kurma

Guests list:
1. Todd
2. Awan
3. Jae
4. Emir
5. Bal
6. Bal (girlfriend)
7. Locky
8. Locky (girlfriend)
9. Butet
10. Usin
11. Ajim
12. CJ
13. Dannie
14. Zarep
15. Leman
16. Shidan
17. Hisham
18. Que
19. Tee Jay
20. Gbx
21. Ijat
22. Ijat (girlfriend)
23. Apeq
24. Apeq (girlfriend)
25. Banuk
26. Pai
27. Mabo
28. Muk
29. Cibo
30. Mon
31. Gona
32. Nad
33. Budin
34. Mik
35. Paan
36. Gochi
37. Matoq
38. Amir Hafiz

Interested to join? Please confirm your attendance latest by 30th August 2009, 5 p.m. by deposit RM20 to my account number:
Maybank: 164388754916
CIMB: 04070023517528
Once you've deposited the money (RM20), please SMS me at +60129313180.

Please find attached, the maps of the venue (zoom in sequence):


If you still can't find the direction, just give me a call once you reach TTDI.

Regards,
Ameirul Azraie

A song for your soul.

Pagi Jumaat.

Sedang aku bermain komputer, hujan turun dengan lebatnya di luar sana.

Hurm, kenapalah pagi ini bukan pagi Ahad, kan?

Perbualan malam di dalam kereta.

Facebook status:
Ameirul Azraie says "Booooo to the training life." "How I wish my father is the CEO of Technip."

Mohd Rasyid comment:
"Why don't you become the CEO?"

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Fara Fatihah analogy:
"I believe that life should come in stages. Just like climbing a ladder. You need to start from below one by one. Yes sometimes you can take bigger step. Skipping one or two but you can't go more than you can afford."

Ameirul Azraie reply:
"Yeah, I agree with you. But, people like me, we don't climb a ladder, we run on the escalator."

Nota cinta #11.

Just do whatever you wanna do. As long as you are honest and take it as ibadah, everything will be just fine. You're still young, full of energy and passion. So, just go and run and run harder until you reach the rainbow, until you grab the stars in the sky. God bless you.

Statement.

"Facebook hanyalah tempat untuk bersosial, secara maya. Nothing more, nothing less."

Majlis Berbuka Puasa for MCKK Class of 2003.

I'm planning to organize Majlis Berbuka Puasa for MCKK Class of 2003. Event details are as follow:

Date: 31st August 2009
Day: Monday
Venue: Homst Restaurant, Taman Tun Dr. Ismail (TTDI)
Type of Food: Chinese Muslim Cooking e.g. Butter Chicken, Steam Fish etc.
Speciality: Dessert - Sago Mango Lolo
Price: Estimated to be around RM30/pax (depends on how much and what type of dishes we order)

Interested to join? Confirm your attendance before 27th August 2009 by deposit RM20 to my account number:
Maybank: 164388754916
CIMB: 04070023517528

Once you've deposited the amount of RM20, please SMS me at +60129313180.

Regards,
Ameirul Azraie

Dialog selepas berbuka puasa.

Aku: Sayang, thanks for the delicious food. Sedap sangat popia dan sotong sumbat tu.

Dia: No prob dear. Welcome to my world where happiness can be found in foods.

Ritual.

Sahur hari pertama Ramadhan dengan makan kurma + sandwich + madu + air teh sambil mata tertutup.

Yeah, just the same like last year.

Nota cinta, special/limited edition #3.

Aku: Ayah, thank you so much for making it to my Convo Day. Thank you for everything!

Ayah: You're welcome. Ayah has to thank you too for being such a wonderful son eventhough there are times WE didn't treat you well. Ayah is so happy for you, for what you've achieved and hope more great things will come, Insha'ALLAH. Congratulations on this special event of your life and my life too.

Nota cinta, special/limited edition #2.

Aku: Ayah, I just want you to know that I can survive with my own money. I have my own t-shirt label. I will do whatever it takes to earn my own money. You don't need to worry about me, anymore. What I need from you is to pray for me that Allah will provide me rezeki yang luas. That's all I need.

Ayah: I will always doa for you my dear.

Nota maaf.

When I feel hurt, I made it public.
So, I guess, you deserve a public apologize from me.
I'm sorry for my behavior.
Sorry for all the cursing.
I know I shouldn't do that to my bros but I just voicing out what is inside my heart + mind.
I know I'm getting busy lately but please know that my bros are always in my heart + mind.
Things change as we grow up.
I also miss the time we used to 'lepak' sampai Subuh, laughing at all the jokes about our old days.
Yeah, I miss, really miss that time but I guess, now, all of us have the responsibility as an adult.
I love you, I always do.
Please accept my sincere apology.

Nota cinta #10.

Fatihahku, this is my morning message for you, my dear sweetheart. I hope it makes you smile and feel better.

"I'll lend you my shoulder for you to cry on, my ears to listen to, my hand for you to hold, my feet to walk with you, but I can't lend you my heart because it already belongs to you my dear angel."

Happy breakfast. Enjoy your shower. Come quick to Kota Damansara because I miss your smile, I miss your smell, I miss everything about you.

143.

Nota cinta #9.

"How would you know if he really loves you?"

It's when you scream, he's calm. When you slap him, he kisses you. When you cry, he hugs you. When you tell him you hate him, he tells you he loves you.

Please know that I love you so much, this entire universe much. Bak kata budak kolet, "Selagi ada peredaran bulan, bintang dan matahari," I promise you, I will love you.

Sleep tight, sweet dreams.

143.

Perasaan.

I'm glad that I still have someone whom I can share anything and everything with him.

Gangguan emosi.

Yeah, people might think that I'm being emotional without any valid reasons. But, brutally truth, I do have my own reasons. I believe that best friends are the greatest thing that ever happened in my life. I value my best friends as my own blood, my own siblings. Yes, seriously. I always keep in mind that I will do anything and everything for my friends that I regard as my own brother, if they are in trouble etc.

When I'm fuckingly and brutally busy with my examination, I can still go in and out from Rector's Office for few times just to make sure that my brother get the chance to continue his study in UTP.

When I'm fuckingly and brutally tired, I can still drive with my own expenses just to help my brother getting his resume done because I'm so worried of him not getting a job.

When I can choose just to ignore my brother, I choose not to do it. Instead I support them by any means.

But, what did I get in return? I don't ask them to get me a job when I graduated. I don't ask for their money when I'm struggling for my own expenses to live in Kuala Lumpur. I don't ask them to come and meet me at my place because I know they have money and time constraints.

What I'm asking is just a little understanding. That's all. Not much to ask right?

What I hope to get when we meet is to catch up and have a good conversation rather mocking me from the beginning until the end of the conversation. That's all. Still, not much to ask right?

Please, I'm begging you, don't simply assume, don't simply judge just by reading my blog and Facebook.

Grow up and think about others too.

Berehat.

Aku dalam gua, duduk berehat tenangkan diri.

Sedang selak kamus Dewan Bahasa, cari definisi sahabat.

Hingga jumpa lagi.

Kehidupan.

Aku belajar dua perkara tentang kehidupan pada pagi ini:

1. Persahabatan memang dinilai melalui kekerapan bertemu.
2. Perasaan kasih, sayang, cinta tidak boleh disalurkan melalui Facebook kerana akan mengundang seribu satu persoalan dan komen sosial.

Sekian rakan-rakan.

Rindu.

Aku rindu masa lepas, masa aku berusia belasan tahun.
Aku rindu waktu dahulu yang sudah berlalu pergi, waktu yang sama seperti sekarang, 3.25 pagi, 4 tahun yang dulu.
Aku rindu zaman muda remaja, zaman tanpa pikul apa-apa tanggungjawab, lepak minum di kedai mamak bergelak ketawa tanpa henti sehingga Subuh.
Aku rindu masa itu, aku rindu waktu itu, aku rindu zaman itu.

Persahabatan.

Jangan sempitkan minda dengan menilai persahabatan melalui jumlah atau kekerapan kamu bertemu.

And, don't ever assume the reason why your friend is busy. Your friend maybe has other responsibility especially towards his parents, siblings and other commitments such as work.

Open your eyes and see the world as a grown up person, ok?

Resume.

Mr. Ameirul Azraie.

I heard u are looking for a driver. Do you still has the vacancy?
I can drive 140/hour, I can wake up as early as 5am, I can make roti bakar kaya+hot tea for breakfast, I can sing, I can make stupid jokes so you won't feel bored if we stuck in the traffic and most importantly my service is payable not by cash.
Oh oh, I graduated with LLB (Hons) and I can wink at the police traffic in case we get summoned.
Hope to hear from u soon.

Regards,
Ms. Fara Fatihah.

Hari kedua.

Tak banyak yang berlaku hari ini. Sama seperti semalam, aku pergi kerja menaiki kereta tapi kali ini dengan Greeny 9746 dan bukannya Wuffy 111. Wuffy 111 sudah diambil balik oleh tuan empunya yang perlu ke Sepang pada hari ini. Hari ini aku tidak keseorangan kerana aku ditemani teman yang aku ambil di Kelana Jaya untuk sama-sama ke SHRDC.

Kelas dari jam 9 pagi hingga 5 petang. Aku belajar tentang asas Project Management. Terasa seperti masuk sekolah balik, mungkin lebih teruk daripada budak sekolah sebab masa yang diperuntukkan untuk rehat adalah terhad. Tapi, yang bagusnya adalah, kami dibayar untuk belajar dan diakhir nanti akan diberikan satu sijil yang diiktiraf dalam industri oil & gas.

Yeah, I guess, that's all for the second day of my training. Ouh, I also got some assignment that I need to submit in the next two days. Now, I don't have anyone that I can copy from. Damn it!

I better do it now. Got to go. Ciao!

Words of wisdom #1.

"Life is not that easy. Don't give up easily." -MayMay @ SHRDC-

Hari pertama.

I met new people. Got to know few names like Vijay, Hafez, Sathiya, Nazim, Syauqi, Hafeza. It's hard to remember all of their names on the first day because I'm suck with names.

Nothing much happened on the first day. Just an introduction about SHRDC and the INSEP Program specifically on Piping System Design that I'm gonna learn for the next 364 days.

The good thing is now, after meeting all these people that were selected for this program, deep inside my heart, I feel so proud of myself for manage to secure 1 spot out of 17 available spot and looking at all those people backgrounds/resumes, there are really 'someone'.

I already got my schedule which is worst than fucking hell, tighter than school/university timetable. I need to come for training on 4th till 11th August before I get my off day on 12th August. Yeah, Saturday, 8th August and Sunday, 9th August, the classes are as usual when I thought I'm entitled for two days of weekend. Damn it!

P/S: I need my off day soon because I want to go out to see my angel. Please GOD? :)

Permulaan.

Buku yang aku karang selama 23 tahun kini aku tutup. Buku yang penuh dengan suka dan duka. Buku yang penuh dengan tawa dan tangis. Buku yang penuh dengan seribu satu emosi seorang anak kecil yang merangkak belajar mengenali erti kehidupan. Buku ini aku tutup dan aku letak rapi di bahagian rak buku untuk dijadikan panduan di masa hadapan, untuk aku dan mereka yang lain.

Aku ambil buku baru yang masih kosong, putih bersih tiada kesan contengan. Aku tuliskan tarikh hari ini, 3 Ogos 2009. Tarikh keramat, tarikh azimat yang akan aku ingat dan kenang sampai bila-bila. Tarikh yang bakal menjadi satu kenangan dalam lipatan sejarah hidup aku. Detik, masa dan ketika yang akan menentukan siapa aku di masa hadapan.

Aku ucapkan selamat datang kepada permulaan hidup baru. Hidup sebagai seorang Trainee in Piping Design yang bakal aku tempuhi selama 365 hari. Akan aku pastikan buku baru ini akan aku tulis dengan baik. Baik tidak bermaksud tiada salah, tiada kesan conteng atau tiada kesan liquid paper. Tapi baik bermaksud agar apa yang ditulis akan sentiasa membawa kepada sesuatu yang menarik, sesuatu yang mencabar, sesuatu yang akan memberi makna kepada kehidupan aku. Lalui kehidupan tanpa sebarang penyesalan.

Aku hanya mahu lakukan yang terbaik. Dan dengan itu, aku sambut kedatangan engkau, 3 Ogos 2009. Selamat datang 3 Ogos 2009!

About man and woman.

"Woman was created from the rib of man. Not from his head to be above him. Nor his feet to be walked upon. But from his side to be equal. Near his arm to be protected. And close to his heart to be loved."

Nota cinta, special/limited edition #1.

"Please convey my many thanks to Fara for being so kind to my dearest son. Insha'Allah, everything gonna be fine as the way you want it to be."

The message sent by my father touched us so much. Ouh, by the way, after reading the message that was sent by my father, I guess, I got the touch to write all the nota cinta to Fara Fatihah from my father. Yeah, it runs in the family.

P/S: Ayah, please know that I love you so much. And, I promise you that I will take care of you till the last day of your life.

Bos kata lain, anak buah kata lain. Mana satu kita nak percaya?

THE STAR Saturday 1 August 2009

PM: ISA protest will not benefit anyone

KUALA LUMPUR: Today’s protest against the Internal Security Act is pointless and will not benefit anyone because the ISA is being reviewed, said Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak.

He said: “Why have a demonstration when we are in the process of discussions and getting feedback from the people?

Read more here.

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MINGGUAN MALAYSIA Ahad 2 0gos 2009

Mimpi di siang hari

PAPAR 1 Ogos - Kerajaan akan terus mempertahankan penggunaan Akta Keselamatan Dalam Negeri (ISA) walaupun mendapat tentangan hebat daripada pembangkang.

Menteri di Jabatan Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Mohamed Nazri Abdul Aziz berkata, akta itu amat penting kerana terbukti mampu memberikan kestabilan dan keamanan kepada negara.

Justeru, katanya, kerajaan tidak akan sesekali berkompromi dengan pihak yang cuba untuk mansuhkan akta tersebut.

Selagi ada langit, selagi ada bintang, selagi itu ISA tidak akan dihapuskan dan saya nak beritahu bahawa pembangkang bermimpi di siang hari sahaja.

"Saya jamin sebagai menteri yang bertanggungjawab terhadap perundangan, kerajaan bukan sahaja tidak pernah terfikir untuk menghapuskan ISA malah mana-mana usaha termasuk usul yang dibawa pembangkang di Dewan Rakyat kita tidak akan tunduk," katanya.

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Sekarang aku benar-benar keliru. Kedua-dua suratkhabar ini milik kerajaan 1Malaysia. Tapi yang semalam ditulis dengan seribu satu janji oleh bos kerajaan 1Malaysia yang ISA sedang dikaji. Lain pula ceritanya hari ini apabilan anak buah kepada bos kerajaan 1Malaysia berkata dengan lantang di Papar yang ISA tidak akan dihapuskan sama sekali. Apa gunanya ISA dikaji jika sudah awal-awal lagi dinyatakan yang ISA tidak akan dihapuskan/dimansuhkan?

Oleh: Anak 1Malaysia Yang Benar-Benar Keliru.

Nota cinta #8.

Sometimes, I feel what I have with you now is like a dream.
Everytime I stare at you, I'm afraid you just a dream that sooner or later will fade away and I'm back in my own reality.
Well if there will be a time I'm a bit cold or stuck in my own world, that means I'm scared.
I'm scared of losing you, I'm scared that it will end soon.
I'm just so glad having you around.
I'm just so blessed with a guy like you.
Please know that you have my heart, you have my whole heart and I'm just looking forward to each new day and future with you.

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I just want you to know something.
Like you, once I love someone, I really devote myself to that person.
And i just want you to know, whatever difficulties, whatever hurdle that we will be facing, I will always stay by your side and I know you are going to do the same too.
And when I say you have my heart, I really mean it.

Nota cinta #7.

Sweetheart,

Thank you for pick me up kat Pudu.
Thank you for not liking Umar Salmun.
Thank you for the Euphoria.
Thank you for every single thing you did today.
My heart is always for you, forever and ever.

Sweetcandy.

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"Spread the art, spread the syndrome, spread the love."

Nota cinta #6.

Fatihah,

Sometimes I always think, why am I this simple? Why I don't think twice or thrice before I do something? I don't know why but I guess, why I want or why I need to complicate things when it can be so simple and easy as 1 + 1 = 2. Why I need to argue whether Pi = 3.14159265 or not when Archimedes already calculate it long time ago for the benefit of us, right? I don't know what to do but to accept it with open heart, to be thankful to God for this moment to happen for real in my life. I pray to Him that your heart will stick to me forever, that your love towards me will remain the same, that He will bless us with all His barakah. Thank you for everything, every single thing you did for me. I heart you so much.

Azraie.

Pemurah.

Puan Ameira,

Hari ini, Nafiz bawa banyak pensil ke sekolah. Kalau tak salah, 2 kotak pensil. Dia bagi kawan-kawan dia seorang sebatang pensil. Saya kumpulkan semula pensil tu dan simpan dalam beg Nafiz. Harap, Puan Ameira boleh periksa beg Nafiz sebelum dia ke sekolah untuk pastikan dia tak bawa terlalu banyak pensil. Terima kasih.

Teacher Dayana.

Nota cinta #5.

Put your head in my hugs.
I promise you that you had made the right choice.
That bright future awaits you.
That you gonna be successful and happy in time.
And, most importantly, I promise you, I will love you until the last day of my life.
Sleep tight sweetheart.
Good night.
I love you.

Doa.

"God, with your knowledge, with your power, with your bless, I pray to you, sincerely, please make this one year of piping design course is a real good step for me to become someone successful in the future. Amin."

Lost in transition.

"Since the age of 10 years old, I wish I would be a successful engineer. But now, being an adult I keep wondering, what would it possibly be that I'm good at besides engineering? What my life would be if I choose to be a freelancer? What my life would be if I choose to be an entrepreneur? What my life would be if I choose to just do whatever I like and be happy? Even though if I'm happy, how long it will be lasted?"

Art Syndrome dalam Utusan Malaysia, Sabtu, 18 Julai 2009 - Usahawan yo!

Tiada pautan di Internet, jadi sila bangun pagi, gosok gigi dan dapatkan Utusan Malaysia di kedai yang terdekat.

Nota cinta #4.

You are an angel that I would never imagine to appear in my life.
You are an angel from heaven that come down to earth to save me from drowning and lost into my own ugly world.
You are an angel that was sent by God to make me become a better person.
You are an angel that are happening for real.

I'm happy, really really happy. No words, no phrases, no sentences can describe how happy I am right now. I heart you so much. And I promise you I will never get enough of you. ♥

Nota cinta #3.

Sweetheart, thank you for making me happy.
Thank you for bringing back the smile I've missed.
Thank you for so many things.
But, most of all, thank you for loving me as who I am.
I promise that I will love and take care of you until the day I die.

Nota cinta #2.

Promise me one thing, only one thing.
That from now on its only going to be us, only us.
Don't hurt me, don't ever leave me.
I love you with all my heart.
Good night, love.

Petikan kata.

"Kalau kau cuba bangun, cuba memperbetulkan dunia yang penuh korupsi, cuba tentang arus, kau akan jadi seperti manusia yang bernama Shamsiah Fakeh, Rashid Maidin, Hishamuddin Rais etc. Jika kau dah bersedia, silakan. Tapi, jika kau belum bersedia, lebih enak kau berdiam diri. Kumpul duit, kumpul kenalan. Kau dah berjaya nanti, kau tabur balik duit dan kenalan kat anak bangsa kau. "Giving back to the community". That is the alternative you can choose."

Bual petang.

Aku: Bila nak buat sesi jamming lagu-lagu Metal?

Kawan: Lepas buat ritual korbankan sorang anak dara. Berminat?

Aku: Tu bukan kau dah selalu korbankan ke?

Kawan: Kau cakap dgn cermin ke?

Aku: Mana ada. Aku cakap dengan kau la...

Renungan.

Petroleum adalah puisi panjang yang dibaca oleh Rahmat Haron pada Sabtu lepas semasa Malam Seni Rakyat di Kajang.

Baca, dalami, hayati, renungkan yang tersurat/tersirat. Semoga kita dapat bangun dari khayalan dunia gila yang sedang kita cuba cipta yang tak lama nanti akan menelan,menghancurkan kita jua.

Perasaan.

I'm so excited, so happy. So, brutally excited, fucking happy. Yeah, you can figure out that I'm so excited and happy. But, can you figure out why am I so brutally excited and fucking happy? It is not because I get a job or what-so-ever. It is because of... this.

Yeah, aku mahu sambung ketuk jari di meja sambil mainkan alunan muzik "Every Instance In Time Is A Journey Of Hope" dalam hati.

Art Syndrome in KLue - Issue #129.

Art Syndrome is being featured in KLue - Issue #129 in the article titled Art Attack. Check it out & grab your copy now!

Spread the art, spread the syndrome, spread the love!

Album: Malam Seni Rakyat di Kajang, 4 Julai 2009.

Rahmat Haron & Ameirul Azraie

Untuk bacaan lanjut mengenai Malam Seni Rakyat sila klik di sini.

Album: KL Tower Indie Fest Part 2.

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Art Syndrome @ KL Tower Indie Fest Part 2, 3rd-4th July 2009.

Come and join Art Syndrome @ KL Tower Indie Fest Part 2. The event details are as follow:

Date: 3rd-4th July 2009
Venue: KL Tower

See you guys there!

Virus cinta.

Dalam perjalan pulang menghantar dia, kotak muzik kereta Kenari yang dipandu oleh aku memutarkan lagu yang cukup menyentuh jiwa.

Lalu, aku senyum. Aku usap lembut pipi dia. Aku pegang erat tangannya dan rapatkan ke dadaku.

Dengan suara garau tapi cuba meniru suara lunak nyanyian Andra & The Backbone, aku nyanyikan bait-bait lirik lagu Sempurna kepadanya.

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Dan, kami sama-sama melarut ke dalam lautan virus cinta yang sungguh indah.

Perjalanan hidup.

So far, life is good. Err, wait a minute. The correct sentence to describe my life nowadays is that, life is great. Yeah, really really great!

Even though, I'm jobless or to make it sounds better, I should start to call myself as a freelancer, I find life is really really great when I can spend most of the time with the people that I love; my family, my lovely Fara Fatihah and my friends.

If I don't dream to drive BMW 3-series before I reach the age of 30-years old, I would live like this and never bother to look for a job. But yeah, in life, we should have a dream, only then we will work hard to achieve our dream.

Back to the story, again, as I said, life is really great now. I've met with Maryam yesterday who is working on a project to expose our independent artist in UK and few other countries. Sounds like a great project. I wish that I could contribute as much as possible to make her dream becomes reality.

As for me, I'm looking to consign Art Syndrome t-shirts at a few shops around Damansara, Kuala Lumpur and Bangsar. I should start thinking to get a loan from MARA etc. to expand my business, so that I don't need to work as a 'boring and deadly' engineer.

Hurm, I guess, it is enough for tonight.

Nice dream people!

Art Syndrome @ KLue Urbanscapes 2009.

Come and join Art Syndrome @ KLue Urbanscapes 2009. The event details are as follow:

Date: 27th June 2009

Venue: Kuala Lumpur Performing Art Centre (KLPac), Sentul

Map:
For more info, kindly go to KLue Urbanscapes website.

Anti-klimaks.

Apa?

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Sweet talker #2.

Aku: You, let say I tak jadi engineer, do you still love me?

Dia: I love you sekarang ni, you engineer ke?

Aku: Betul juga. Hehehe.

Dia: I'm in love with Ameirul Azraie Bin Mustadza, bukan dengan engineer. I jumpa you pun, you tengah jual t-shirt.

Aku. Haha. Okay. Love you super much, sayang.

Kuala Lumpur.

Bersandangkan beg berwarna coklat jenama ROMP, aku meredahi bumi Kuala Lumpur yang sedang disirami rintik-rintik hujan kurniaan Ilahi, menyusuri Jalan Yap Kwan Seng menuju ke Jalan Ampang ke arah destinasi aku pada petang ini, Wisma Central.

Aku berjalan menyusuri laluan pejalan kaki yang menghubungkan Twin Tower PETRONAS dengan Wisma Central. Di pertengahan laluan pejalan kaki itu, aku lihat seorang pemuda yang masih sihat tubuh badan dengan topi yang hampir menutup matanya sedang berdiri memetik gitar menyanyikan lagu yang tak jelas kedengaran bunyinya. Di depannya ada dihamparkan beg supaya orang yang lalu lalang boleh menghulurkan sedikit wang ehsan (ini bukan wang ehsan yang kerajaan Persekutuan perlu bayar kepada Terengganu, jangan silap).

Aku jenguk beg dihadapan pemuda itu untuk lihat berapa gaji hariannya untuk hari ini. Ouh, untuk pengetahuan, pemuda ini aku lihat sudah berada di sini lebih dari tiga hari berturut-turut di sini. "Mungkin lumayan gaji yang diterimanya sebab kawasan dia bekerja berdekatan Twin Tower PETRONAS, lubuk duit rakyat Malaysia," teka aku dalam hati.

Aku jenguk dengan penuh harapan kerana jika pendapatannya lumayan, aku juga mahu turut serta bersama pemuda ini mewujudkan 2-piece band untuk menghiburkan orang ramai yang lalu-lalang.

Jenguk. Gosok mata. Jenguk sekali lagi.

Aku hampa. Hanya terdapat beberapa keping wang syiling 20 sen dan dua keping nota RM 1. "Mungkin suara dia tak sedap atau mungkin orang ramai di sini tiada sikap prihatin/simpati," detik hati aku.

"Tapi, kenapa pemuda yang kelihatan sihat ini tak cuba cari pekerjaan yang lebih terjamin?" soal aku sendirian menghulurkan beberapa keping nota RM 1 dan syiling yang berada di dalam poket seluar sebelum berlalu dengan persoalan yang sama masih bermain di minda.

Di hadapan sedikit, aku lihat seorang wanita India Muslim (aku andaikan dia seorang beragama Islam sebab dia memakai tudung), sedang duduk mengemis, meminta sedekah dengan seorang bayi kecil yang sedang menyusu badan. Tersentuh hati aku melihat keadaan/situasi seperti ini. "Kenapalah dunia ini perlu begitu kejam kepada anak kecil ini?" soal hati aku. "Kenapalah dunia sebegini kejam terhadap manusia yang hanya mahu hidup, di dunia ini," hati sedihku memberontak mempersoalkan kekejaman dunia.

Dengan penuh rasa kasihan/simpati/belas ihsan aku buka dompet dan hulurkan beberapa keping nota RM 1 dengan harapan perutnya yang aku sangat pasti belum terisi apa-apa itu dapat merasa sedikit nikmat makan untuk hari ini.

"Semoga Allah permudahkan hidup kau dan anak kecil dalam dakapan kau pada hari ini dan hari-hari yang mendatang," pohon aku pada yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Aku berlalu ke Wisma Central, menyelesaikan sedikit urusan untuk hari ini.

Sebelum keluar terdetik di hati aku untuk membelikan wanita dan bayinya sedikit makanan. Aku capai sebotol air mineral dan sebuku roti dan membayar di kaunter. Aku bawa makanan tersebut dengan air mata bergenang kesedihan memikirkan nasib wanita dan bayi tersebut. Sampai di hadapan wanita itu aku hulurkan makanan yang aku beli. "This is for you. Please eat and take a good care of your baby," kata aku sayu sambil menghulurkan makanan tersebut kepada wanita itu. Wanita itu mendongak dan memandang aku dengan senyuman. Aku balas senyuman itu dan berlalu pergi.

Hati aku menangis.

Sweet talker #1.

Dia: You, I nampak cantik pakai tudung yang ada corak camni atau yang plain je?

Aku: You pakai apa-apa pun nampak cantik, sayang.

Art Syndrome @ Moulin Rouge'09, 21 June 2009.

Come and visit Art Syndrome's booth at 3K Complex, SS 13 Subang Jaya on 21 June 2009 which is early this morning!!!

For this event we will be collaborating with Our Happiness & Kera Rock Clothing.

See you guys there!

Site Map:

Nota cinta #1.

Ameirul Azraie,

The moment I felt in love with you for the first time, I know I am gonna spend my grey old days with you, walking hand in hand on lake and still sandar-ing on the same shoulder even when we are at our 60's. I love you and please don't doubt us.

Art Syndrome @ Rockaway 2009 on 20 June 2009.

Come and visit Art Syndrome's booth at CapSquare, KL on 20 June 2009 which is early this morning!!!

For this event we will be collaborating with Our Happiness & Kera Rock Clothing.

See you guys there!

Dalam kereta.

Dalam kereta untuk menghantar dia ke tempat kerja, kawan yang turut ikut aku pada pagi ini mengeluh, "Haish, kenapalah susah sangat nak ubah perangai orang," sambil menggaru kepala. "Tu la, dulu aku cakap ko tak nak percaya," sambut aku nada sedikit mengejek. "Apa yang aku cakap kat ko? Yang ko tak nak percaya dulu tu," sambung aku sambil senyum mengejek.

"People don't change," jawab dia mendatar disusuli dengan keluhan panjang.

"Tak la..People will change if they want to change," sampuk dia membantah. "But, usually people don't change, betul tak?" soal aku menduga. "Yeah, it is true. But, people will change if they want to change and provided they have the right medium to do it," terang dia bersungguh.

"The analogy is the same like...," sambung dia sebelum dicantas oleh aku, "Mula dah putar belit lawyer dia," kata aku tersenyum.

"Alaa...Dengar la ni. The analogy is the same like teh susu," kata dia yakin. "Kenapa pula," soal aku ingin tahu. "Yelah. In order untuk teh O jadi teh susu, kena ada susu. Susu tu la medium yang tukarkan teh O jadi teh susu," terang dia bersungguh dan panjang lebar.

"Sama juga la cam I. I change because I want to change and I have the medium to do it," kata dia sambil membetulkan tudung.

"Apa medium you?" soal aku ingin tahu.

"Medium I is you. I love you sayang," jawab dia dengan senyuman gembira.

"Mulut manis," jawab aku perlahan.

Petang di KLCC.

I had my lunch with her and my friends at the back of Lembaga Getah Malaysia's building. A reasonable lunch filled with laugh and joy. I just love it this way because it makes me happy, inside and outside. Yeah, I'm now full of happiness and I'm smiling while writing this entry.

Lepas makan tengah hari, aku berjalan ke KLCC. Pergi ke Maybank untuk re-activate balik akaun Maybank2u. Kemudian ke surau KLCC untuk solat Zohor. Sampai sahaja di kawasan untuk solat, aku lihat seorang budak Cina berkopiah sedang duduk di tempat masuk ke kawasan solat dengan beberapa buah buku di hadapannya. "Ini mesti nak jual buku tu, nak dapat duit sikit untuk belanja hidup," bicara aku dalam hati. Teringat aku tulisan Hishamuddin Rais dalam bukunya - Keganasan, Penipuan & Internet mengenai budak-budak yang menjual tapi hakikatnya mereka hanya mahu mengemis (bagi pihak orang dewasa yang tidak bertanggungjawab).

Aku tenung sejenak muka budak Cina yang berkopiah itu. "Aku rasa dia bukan antara budak-budak yang dieksploitasi untuk tujuan mengemis," rasional minda memberitahu hatiku. Dia beri salam kepada aku dengan pelat orang dari Tanah besar China. Aku jawab salam dan aku tanya tentang buku yang dijual. Buku yang dijual adalah buku hasil kajian mengenai agama Islam oleh kawan dia yang baru sahaja menganut agama Islam. Buku mengenai fakta-fakta betapa indahnya Islam yang diturunkan oleh Allah kepada Nabi Muhammad yang kini diwarisi oleh kita semua, manusia akhir zaman.

"Berapa harga sebuah buku ini?" tanya aku dengan harga RM10-RM15 berlegar di minda kerana buku tersebut hanya salinan fotokopi setebal 50 muka surat. "Buku ini harga RM28, abang," jawab budak Cina ini lembut, penuh sopan-santun. Aku tergamam sekejap. Aku selak helaian demi helaian buku tersebut sambil budak Cina tersebut duduk di sebelah aku. Aku baca mukadimah dan tiga tajuk terawal. Isi kandungan agak menarik walaupun aku dapat rasakan dengan Google aku boleh ketemu semua fakta-fakta ini.

Sambil membelek, aku hela nafas. Aku pujuk hati untuk membeli. Aku yakinkan diri yang tak ada ruginya jika aku beli buku tersebut. Aku rasionalkan minda. "Tengok wayang dengan awek boleh habis dekat RM20-30, tak akan untuk tolong budak Cina ni tak boleh?" soal aku dalam hati untuk pujuk/yakin/rasional kan diri.

Jadi, aku keluarkan dompet dari saku poket. Aku keluarkan 2 nota merah dan 1 nota hijau. Belum sempat aku mengeluarkan 3 nota biru, si budak Cina kata, "Saya bagi kurang, RM25 je untuk abang," sambil tersenyum. Senyuman yang juga buat aku tersenyum. "Semoga Islam itu menjadi indah untuk kau," kata aku dalam hati sebelum meminta diri untuk solat Zohor.

Today, after what I did, I feel so good. I wish I could live this kind of life for the rest of my life. If God can provide me RM1000 every day, believe me, I will live this kind of life because I find it easy and beautiful and I love it.

God, can't you send me RM1000 every morning?

Bidadari.

"What an extremely gorgeous Arabian woman who sits in front of me," getus aku dalam hati.

Yeah, I guess now I know what I should do during my jobless time.

Nightmare.

Malam tadi, dalam perjalanan menghantar dia pulang ke rumah, tiba-tiba BlackBerry kepunyaan dia berbunyi tanda ada mesej yang diterima.

Dia yang sedang duduk di sebelah aku mencapai BlackBerry tersebut yang terletak di hadapannya untuk melihat mesej yang diterima.

Suasana hening buat seketika. Selepas 5 saat dia bersuara. "You, are you a ghost?" tanya dia dengan muka yang cuak. "Why? Kenapa tanya camtu?" balas aku yang sudah mula pelik. "Sebab sekarang ni you tengah chat kat Gtalk dengan I," jawab dia sambil tunjuk phone kepada aku. "Wow, this is a nightmare. Seriously, a fucking nightmare! Hustler gila hacker ni" balas aku dengan nada kagum.

Hacker, don't hack my account, please?

Pagi di Starbucks Coffee, KLCC.

Now, on this lovely morning, I write this entry from Starbucks Coffee, KLCC.

I can just write and write from morning till evening without anyone disturbing me.

Oooh, what a fucking cool life that I live now.

Rutin.

Pagi - sarapan pagi bersama ayah di depan Hospital Jasin (di mana masih ramai kakitangan hospital yang sibuk makan/minum walaupun jam sudah menunjukkan jam 8.45 pagi), hantar makanan kepada nenek di kampung.

Tengah hari/petang - makan tengah hari, melayari internet sehingga rasa mual dan sebal.

Malam - makan malam, sambung melayari internet sampai mata mengantuk.

Hurm, boleh mati kebosanan kalau rutin ni berterusan/berlanjutan hingga 2-3 bulan lagi. For my sanity sake, please give me a job!

Any job will do, seriously! Please email at ameirulazraie@gmail.com

Tersurat dan tersirat.

Dia: Do you know what they call chambering student in Malay?

Aku: Nope.

Dia: Pelatih dalam kamar. Hehehe.

Aku: Hahaha.

On the dole.

Setelah Khamis berlalu dengan begitu sahaja, tanpa membawa sebarang erti dan makna dalam kamus kehidupan aku untuk minggu ini, aku bertekad untuk lakukan sesuatu yang bermakna hari ini.

Jadi, sekali lagi, seperti biasa aku bangun. Lakukan rutin yang sama - gosok gigi, mandi bla bla bla. Kali ini, aku pakai kemeja warna ungu dipadankan dengan seluar slack warna hitam. Turun tangga, aku berhenti di depan cermin untuk pastikan rambut tersisir rapi dan muka kelihatan kemas. Senyum di depan cermin, aku kata "Semoga dapat kerja hari ini," kepada diri sendiri.

Dengan berbekalkan 10 keping résumé yang berharga RM18, aku pandu kereta Kenari dan jemput dia sebelum menghantar dia ke tempat kerja, lalu aku pandu kereta ke arah Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre lalu aku parkir kereta di tepi rumah di Jalan Stonor dan berjalan lebih kurang 800 meter untuk sampai ke KLCC. Kenapa aku parkir kereta di Jalan Stonor yang jauh dan bukannya di KLCC? Sebabnya adalah aku ingin berjalan/bersenam. Sambil cari kerja, dapat sihatkan badan yang dah mula muncul lemak-lemak comel ini. Kau percaya? Pastilah tidak. Sebab yang sebetulnya adalah kerana aku nak mengelak harga parkir di sekitar KLCC yang sudah boleh menyamai 2 kali santapan makan tengah hari aku di UTP.

Sampai di KLCC, aku tanya staff yang berada di situ untuk masuk ke dalam kawasan pameran. Jawapan yang diberi, hari Jumaat untuk orang yang dah bekerja dengan mana-mana syarikat. "Sial la, aku dah la print résumé mahal nak mampus, ko boleh tak nak bagi aku masuk?" jerit aku dengan kuat. Aku ingat muka dia akan berubah sebab ditengking begitu kuat tapi dia hanya kata "Maaf ye encik," sebelum berlalu pergi. Ouh, patut la dia selamba je. Aku jerit dalam hati je.

Sambil menyumpah "OGA babi! OGA sial! OGA babi! OGA sial! OGA babi! OGA sial! OGA babi!," aku berjalan menuju ke kereta yang terletak di Jalan Stonor. "Sial, jauh pula aku parking kereta ni," kata aku sambil memegang baju yang sudah dibasahi peluh. Sampai di Jalan Stonor, aku masuk ke dalam kereta, berbogel (tapi masih ada boxer) dan menyarung collar t-shirt serta corduroy pants Padini sebelum bergerak ke Ampang melalui Ampang-KL Elevated Highway (AKLEH).

Sampai di Ampang aku naik ke pejabat tempat aku part-time semasa cuti semester yang lepas dengan hajat untuk menagih simpati, meminta kerja daripada bos. Aku diajak oleh bos untuk masuk ke dalam pejabatnya.

Bos: Ameirul, how's everything? Graduated already?

Aku: Yups. Now, I'm looking for a job.

Bos: Susah ke nak dapat kerja sekarang? What is the exact situation out there?

Aku: I think, it is very difficult la bos. Most of my friends are still looking for a job. Lagi-lagi yang nak kerja dengan oil and gas company.

Bos: Ouh, really?

Aku. Yeah. So, how's your business? (Ayat pancing nak tanya ada kerja tak untuk aku).

Bos: Overall, everything is good. Painting job just finished yesterday and now we are bidding for a few more jobs. I'm also looking at the possibility of developing a software/application that I mentioned to you before this. For now, I don't think I have a job for you but if I manage to develop the software/application and sell it to the clients I will ask you to join me.

Aku: Ouh, okay. (Hampa sebab tak ada kerja).

The conversation continued for another 10 minutes before I excuse myself to have (free) lunch with my friend at Pizza Hut. Yummy.

Sigh. I thought I'm gonna get a job from him but I didn't. Yeah, what to do? I guess I will be jobless for a few months.

I hope I will get a job soon.

Sigh again.

Khamis yang ennui.

Seperti semalam, aku bangun pagi. Lakukan rutin yang sama - gosok gigi, mandi di bawah pancuran air, lap badan, sarung collar t-shirt dan corduroy pants Padini (persalinan yang lain) dan sapu minyak wangi Calvin Klein Euphoria Men. Tapi pagi ini bila turun tangga, aku tak menjenguk ke arah cermin kerana hari ini aku tak perlu hantar dia ke mahkamah.

Aku pandu kereta Kenari ke kawasan Hartamas untuk jemput dia. Sebelum itu, aku singgah beli nasi lemak sotong kegemaran dia. Sampai di rumah dia, aku tanpa rasa segan & malu yang selalunya dimiliki oleh orang Melayu, telah menjemput diri sendiri masuk ke dalam rumah dia dan sarapan pagi bersama dia dan keluarga. Cool right? Yeah, I'm super cool, I know it.

Lepas sarapan pagi, aku bawa dia ke Kuala Lumpur Bar dan kemudiannya ke Malaysian Bar untuk hantar satu salinan Affidavit pada setiap Bar. Selesai urusan, aku hantar di ke pejabat yang terletak di sekitar KLCC sebelum pulang ke rumah. Pulang ke rumah, aku bercadang untuk bersiap ke OGA 2009 tetapi mata yang masih mengantuk dan belum boleh membiasakan dengan rutin harian yang baru menjemput aku ke kamar tidur.

"Bibik, nanti kejut saya jam 12.00 tengah hari tau!" jerit aku dari kamar tidur di tingkat atas kepada bibik yang berada di dapur.

Kesudahannya? Aku bangun tidur jam 4.00 petang dan terus bersiap untuk mengambil dia pulang dari kerja.

Khamis yang ennui bukan?

Mahkamah.

Mata tercelik seawal jam 6.50 pagi. Pusing kiri, pusing kanan bilik masih gelap dan sejuk. Kepenatan mengemas pakaian dan barang untuk pulang semalam masih terasa. Badan masih sengal-sengal akibat turun naik bilik yang berlokasi di tingkat 5 untuk memunggah barang ke dalam kereta. Badan yang masih mengantuk ini menjemput mata untuk kembali terkatup.

Bila aku tersedar kembali, jam sudah menunjukkan 8.15 pagi. Pada masa yang sama, telefon di tepi bantal juga berdering lalu aku angkat. "Dah bangun belum? You kena teman I pergi court pagi ni," tanya dia lembut. "I dah bangun lama la. Dah siap, tunggu you je datang," jawab aku dengan tenang dan yakin. "Ok, I'm coming in another 15 minutes," jawab dia sebelum meletakkan telefon.

Aku terus bangun dari katil, capai tuala dan meluru masuk ke dalam bilik air. Gosok gigi, mandi di bawah pancuran air, lap badan, sarung collar t-shirt dan corduroy pants Padini dan sapu minyak wangi Calvin Klein Euphoria Men. Turun tangga, aku tengok cermin untuk pastikan muka tidak nampak seperti penjenayah yang dalam perbicaraan kes Seksyen 39B Akta Dadah Berbahaya.

Tepat jam 8.30 pagi, kereta Kenari milik dia sampai di depan rumah. Aku pandu kereta memasuki kawasan Kuala Lumpur menuju ke Jalan Tun Perak untuk mendapatkan cop & tanda tangan Affidavit daripada Pesuruhjaya Sumpah. Selesai urusan tersebut, aku pandu kereta menuju ke Kompleks Mahkamah Kuala Lumpur. Dalam perjalanan ke sana, dia bersuara. "Nanti sampai sana, you tengok semua lawyer yang keluar dari mahkamah mesti muka stress." Aku tanya, "Kenapa camtu eh?" Dia jawab, "Sebab kes kena reject dengan hakim bla bla bla..." Ouh, bla bla bla tu sebab aku tak dapat recall apa ayat yang betul sebab ayat law macam pelik/serabut sikit.

Sampai di hadapan Kompleks Mahkamah Kuala Lumpur, apa yang dikatakan oleh dia memang betul. Semua lawyer yang keluar dari mahkamah, muka dipenuhi seribu satu macam masalah dan kerisauan.

Aku: I think, I should open up my own consultant and teach them about stress management.

Dia: No. You should open up your own event management company and organized things like Family Day, bagi lawyer ni semua ceria sikit.

Aku: Ouh, betul juga. Good opportunity ni. Lawyer semua banyak duit. Cepatlah I kaya camni. Hehehe...

3 perkara.

3 perkara yang semua orang cari sementara hidup di dunia ini.

Keluarga, sahabat dan harta.

Kalau setiap individu dapat capai 3 perkara ini, mereka pasti gembira.

Tapi untuk capai 3 perkara ini bukan sesuatu yang mudah.

Banyak usaha dan pengorbanan perlu dilakukan untuk mencapai 3 perkara ini.

Jadi, berusahalah dan cuba seimbangkan antara 3 perkara ini kerana kegembiraan hanya akan dicapai jika 3 perkara ini hadir secara seimbang dalam kehidupan kita.